I'll try and fill this in in more detail later... but essentially i went from having maddy from late afternoon saturday to sunday night to just a couple hours on sunday.
Tracy cancelled on me saturday night, maddy has a cold and she pulled a muscle so she didnt want to go out. Not really a valid excuse, i offered to pick her up and drop her off... no dice. What i didnt realize is that she had plans for a dinner party with a previous lover and his wife and the couple she lives with, that she isnt telling me about. Sunday morning she texts me to let me know my visit is going to be shorter because they have dinner plans. Well, what she fails to tell me is that the visit turns into a pumpkin at 2:30 in the afternoon. Not 5pm, not 6pm and not even 7pm... all perfectly reasonable dinner times.
Its all fucked up and mostly i just dont want to care.
I dont have the energy to battle her. If she doesnt want to play nice, then dont. Dont lie to me... tell me that i cant have a full visit because you want a date. I wont like that she is putting her needs ahead of our daughter, but hey... people do that every day, but at least she's being honest.
Maddy is getting to the age where she is going to remember her father, now is the time to excise me if that is her plan. Luckily for her they screwed up the birth certificate so no father is named. The only way to link her to me is by DNA, so she can tell maddy that i'm Old Ben Kenobi and there is no Obi Wan Kenobi. And that if he tries to tell you that he is your dad he is just an old lover who is obsessed and has never let go.
Oh well... maddy is going to need her dad, but hey so did alex and she turned out okay.
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